I'd like to think that I'm a patient person, but reality is...I'm not. As much as I'd like to be, believe me, I wish I could be. This week has really tested my patience. Waiting for news gives me anxiety and makes me completely impatient.
I've noticed that when I don't think about it, I end up getting great news. It's when I become obsessed with my impatience that the news ends up being what I don't want to hear. However; that in itself has given me insight. So, as hard as it may be, I am going to TRY my very best to be more patient. It'll be my new mantra.
Why has this new revelation unfolded?
June has been a hectic and crazy month so far. But it's a good hectic and crazy. I passed both exams that I took earlier this month, which is a huge relief. They were the same tests that I had to take the weekend my car broke down. I was so busy the rest of the week after that, that I didn't have time to be impatient - so in the end result, I got the news I wanted. Hence all good things come to those that wait.
It's funny how things in life pan out. A few years ago, I wouldn't have thought that I'd be where I am now - doing something different, making a career change, and getting my feet wet in an industry I never knew anything about. Since my son has been pursuing his acting career, we've both been learning something new every day. Learning new lingo, the ins and outs, do's and don't, and patience.
The entertainment industry is definitely a roller coaster ride. It's unpredictable, which is both scary and exciting. But ever since I could remember, my son has talked about doing nothing else but become an actor. This is his dream, and being the awesome and supportive parent I am, I want to do everything I can for him. I'd do it for all my kiddos.
That doesn't mean that I don't have time for myself. His dreams unfolding, have made me realize that with will and determination, the universe will somehow align and things will happen. My screenwriting teacher was right.
So, over the past few months, I've been on a path of self-discovery. Re-evaluating my life and what I want to do with it. Should I work the same old 8-5 job everyday? Sure, it's a stable income. It's something that I'm good at. BUT, I know I won't be happy with it. Some of you who have read my blog in the past, know that I've been taking screenwriting classes. I graduate with my certificate in Screenwriting this year. I've been writing and re-writing my script, and I think that it's finally taking shape. I've decided to continue to explore my screenwriting abilities. I've also been really passionate about teaching. I'd like to become a college professor. One of my exams was actually toward the steps of gaining the experience to do just that.
The point of this blog is, I've waiting so long to do the things that I love, mainly because of fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, and fear of time. Is it too late? I constantly kept thinking that at this point in my life, I should be settled, with a career and 401k. Live the American dream. In between all that haze, I lost sight of what was my dream. It's time to change that. Who cares what anyone else says or thinks. It's my life and I'm taking it back.
Are you living your dream? Are you doing everything in your power to get to where you want to be?