Monday, February 6, 2017

Past, Present, Future

Have you ever played back a life event over and over again? Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change it. Sometimes I wish I can go back and re-live it. But the reality is that everything that has happened in the past, has made us stronger, somehow, in the present and what will makes us wiser for the future. 

2016 really showed me some harsh realities. At first, I thought that I was just stuck in the same slump for a period of a few months, but when I opened my eyes to a bigger picture, I realized that I've been feeling that way for 4 years. It's hard to admit, sometimes, when you don't want to face certain realities. But acknowledging it for what it is, gave me clarity and it was the first step to change my attitude about life. 

I guess you could say that I was playing the mother role with everyone. Taking care of everyone's needs and neglecting my own. I stopped thinking about myself and was helping everyone else around me. I became this controlling person, a robot on autopilot. Once I realized that there were situations beyond my control and situations that weren't serious, it was easy to let go of that person I had become and slowly embrace the person I once was. It's tough, some days it's even a struggle, but I always remind myself that life is too short, so the decisions I make today should be ones I won't regret if there is no tomorrow.

If there is anything that I want you to take away from this post, is that tomorrow is never promised. So say what you mean, do what you love, let go of the past, and become the person you keep wishing you were. 


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Monday, September 19, 2016

Craving for Adventure

I don't know about you, but every time I scroll through my news feed, someone is traveling. Whether it's going to the next state for the weekend, traveling across country, or touring the world, it's exciting to see what locations they've visited. This year, I was able to venture off to San Diego and Las Vegas, but I think I'd like to visit one more place before the year ends.

It's been years since we've been to San Francisco, so I'm thinking of hitting up my old stomping grounds for a holiday get-a-way and make it a goal for 2017 to travel more.

What places have you visited this year?
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Tuesday, June 14, 2016


"Good things come to those who wait."

I'd like to think that I'm a patient person, but reality is...I'm not. As much as I'd like to be, believe me, I wish I could be. This week has really tested my patience. Waiting for news gives me anxiety and makes me completely impatient. 

I've noticed that when I don't think about it, I end up getting great news. It's when I become obsessed with my impatience that the news ends up being what I don't want to hear. However; that in itself has given me insight. So, as hard as it may be, I am going to TRY my very best to be more patient. It'll be my new mantra.

Why has this new revelation unfolded?
June has been a hectic and crazy month so far. But it's a good hectic and crazy. I passed both exams that I took earlier this month, which is a huge relief. They were the same tests that I had to take the weekend my car broke down. I was so busy the rest of the week after that, that I didn't have time to be impatient - so in the end result, I got the news I wanted. Hence all good things come to those that wait.
It's funny how things in life pan out. A few years ago, I wouldn't have thought that I'd be where I am now - doing something different, making a career change, and getting my feet wet in an industry I never knew anything about. Since my son has been pursuing his acting career, we've both been learning something new every day. Learning new lingo, the ins and outs, do's and don't, and patience.

The entertainment industry is definitely a roller coaster ride. It's unpredictable, which is both scary and exciting. But ever since I could remember, my son has talked about doing nothing else but become an actor. This is his dream, and being the awesome and supportive parent I am, I want to do everything I can for him. I'd do it for all my kiddos.

That doesn't mean that I don't have time for myself. His dreams unfolding, have made me realize that with will and determination, the universe will somehow align and things will happen. My screenwriting teacher was right.

So, over the past few months, I've been on a path of self-discovery. Re-evaluating my life and what I want to do with it. Should I work the same old 8-5 job everyday? Sure, it's a stable income. It's something that I'm good at. BUT, I know I won't be happy with it. Some of you who have read my blog in the past, know that I've been taking screenwriting classes. I graduate with my certificate in Screenwriting this year. I've been writing and re-writing my script, and I think that it's finally taking shape. I've decided to continue to explore my screenwriting abilities. I've also been really passionate about teaching. I'd like to become a college professor. One of my exams was actually toward the steps of gaining the experience to do just that.

The point of this blog is, I've waiting so long to do the things that I love, mainly because of fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, and fear of time. Is it too late? I constantly kept thinking that at this point in my life, I should be settled, with a career and 401k. Live the American dream. In between all that haze, I lost sight of what was my dream. It's time to change that.  Who cares what anyone else says or thinks. It's my life and I'm taking it back.

Are you living your dream? Are you doing everything in your power to get to where you want to be?

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Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Social Media Craze

Question of the week: How many social media accounts do you have? Do they help you or distract you?

Well, to answer the first question, I have about 5 and they can be, at times, distracting! I wish I could say that I don't check at least one of them on a daily basis, but I'm guilty.

I remember when social media was non-existent. Even internet wasn't a huge craze when I was growing up. I'm from the "olden days" when writing letters and folding them into some type of origami was the thing to do. I kinda miss those times. I perfected my handwriting because back then, I wanted my writing to be cute. Just like fonts on a computer.

Luckily, my husband still believes in writing me cute little love notes and insists on buying me cards for every occasion. It's funny, because when he first started doing that in the beginning of our relationship, I thought that flowers and cards were a waste of money. Then there was one occasion a few years back, where he didn't get me a card. He thought I would be thrilled, but I was actually disappointed. I guess I didn't realize just how much these cards meant to me.

How many social media accounts do you have? And are you constantly on them? Using every single one, or do you have a favorite?

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Sunday, June 5, 2016

When Poop Gets You Down, Pick it Up and Throw it!

I'm awake! Unfortunately at 4am, but the upside is it's for a good reason. Kiddo is filming today, and while he gets ready, I can just lay here, sleepily, while I write. Because I, as his parent, can just roll out of bed, put my clothes on, and grab the things I already packed the night before while heading out the door. No need to look cute.

That doesn't mean I'm not exhausted, though, because I am. This weekend has been crazy. FRIDAY, I drove 45 minutes to take one exam, drove back home so I can make it in time to attend my youngest kiddo's award assembly, then drove an hour for kiddo's audition.  We ate dinner... then it happened. No, I'm not talking about poop, though the situation was another word for it. Our car overheated and we were stuck. Stuck in an unfamiliar neighborhood, in the dark. At night. Sirens wailing in the distance. Sketchy people walking by and staring as we pop open the hood. Did I mention it was dark?

After all said and done, it was time for AAA to rescue us. Thank goodness my oldest was around. I mean I love AAA, but when your tired and cranky, sitting in the tow forces light conversation and I wasn't in the mood. So my oldest took us home.
Didn't get home till 1am.

I woke up on Saturday, panicked. I had my second exam that afternoon, which of course was an hour away, and I didn't know if my car would be fixed on time. Uber would have cost $70 (one way), so, I decided to rent a car instead for a much cheaper price and made it to my second exam.

And here we are, Sunday morning, bright and early to film.

This week has definitely had its highs and lows, but I'm happy I overcame the lows because the highs were well worth it. Goes to show that if you really want things done, you need to make them happen and don't let these hurdles stop you!

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